I'm de-armoring for the next two weeks
That means: patterns of breathing, pressure points, and vibratory stimulation that triggers release of long held tension in the body
In this particular process, we have a session every night for the two weeks
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I like to take joy in that things which are alien, shocking, embarrassing or even shameful to many people, and past versions of myself, are to me completely normal now
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"De-armoring? Hell yeah—sign me up!"
I know exactly what it means, what the benefit will be, and for me it feels like it would be an utter shame to live my life without going through this or an analogous process
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A part of me still doesn't know quite what to do with knowing that most people in my life may never know what I'm talking about
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I suppose there's little difference with, say, understanding how the Internet actually works infrastructurally (and also the limits of my understanding there)
I've earnestly read IETF RFCs, yet most people around me probably don't really understand what a server is
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There's a weird kind of humble brag energy to this
Like a "oh, you really have no idea, but don't worry about it, it's pretty obscure!"
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One thing this is hiding is that I truly want everyone in my life to de-armor, and understand how the Internet works
It's actually sad to me that people will die without knowing that liberation, and I feel lonely imagining I won't be able to connect with people
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On a pseudo-spiritual level, I believe the sages when they reassure me that everything is perfect the way it is, and that I will come to realize that directly through practice
But right now I'm not there
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