Today has reinforced this frustration that's been building since the new year: After decades pursuing this, I'm tired of being "rogue"; I lack any recourse due to my continuing freelance status. Not a clue how to proceed towards a semblance of legitimacy.
That is, I'm living in a cocoon and have no idea how "known" I am out there in reality. I'll occasionally hear some surprising anecdotes, but then I'll just fall on my face when someone says, "huh?"