MetaJess

I'm learning that a core factor in my quality of life is how I relate to this uncertainty. I can choose an anxious grasping attempt to control or with easeful fluid spontaneous expressions of care. [sidenote: this also applies to quality of life in groups]

so I'm seeing there are forces "much larger than me". I can make plans and lay all the groundwork but ultimately I have no control over whether or not I reach my objectives

e.g. for every BLM, XR, FFF, there are a 1000 attempted social movements that failed. for some of them, the founders did everything right, but the environmental conditions weren't in place. 10000000 kids said Fuck School but there was only 1 Greta in the right time & place

so I'm learning I can surrender to these larger forces. I still tend to my patch of the garden but I give up responsibility for what is out of my hands. if enough people do the same, humanity will be fine. if not, at least I die with my integrity and without excess stress

so I'm starting to see the Synthesis on the horizon: I can see how it could be useful to treat the uncertainty factor, the forces larger than me, the out-of-my-hands-ness as a divine person.

Maybe it's useful to imagine a big dude in the sky, he's benevolent towards me, but he's also got much bigger responsibilities. I can leave space in my life for him to give me gifts, but I can't expect him to change his plans for me.

I think a passive space won’t do much. I think you have to give him something, but in exchange you get more than just gifts

say more?