MetaJess

So, I've been having this relaxing feeling about the Inevitablility of the Speed of Time

In this thread there is 1) a thing that I've noticed plenty of times and 2)a new way to feel about it We're gonna start with 1)

The thing is that... time keeps happening. Sun goes up, sun goes down, you're forced to be conscious through most of it and it never stops, until one day it does, but that's the last day. Every single other day until then time/life just *will not stop*.

There's plenty that is variable about this, you can slow time down, speed time up, enhance conscious experience, try to annihilate conscious experience, try to be more "in the moment", try to push life as far away as possible.

But ultimately there is this package of experience that cannot be compressed. You are subject to your sensory impressions of your immediate surroundings *all the time* and in fact, that's the *only* way that you're aware of anything, all the time.

Annihilating consciousness is possible, but you're always pushing against the tide. Depressed people sleep a lot. Other people use depressant drugs (alcohol, cannabis, heroin) but if you stop doing these, even for an hour, your consciousness is just right back as if it never left

Ok so that's 1). That's a thing about the universe. When I was younger I was so anxious about time rolling on bc I wanted to shape the future by making the right decisions. When I was depressed I woke up in the morning and was like "this again". Days weight hanging on my neck

But now, I feel something else (this is 2)) I can rely on time to keep going, and this is comforting. I can passively give up on trying to control things, but the passivity is positive. I can relax and watch my life as if it's an exciting theatre show.