MetaJess

decided my time of wandering was over (I’d been homeless for a year) and I should use the tools this movement gives you (probabilistic thinking) to live a better life. So I moved to London and began to train as a web developer. Luckily I had a smart, understanding new friend.

He was a very happy go lucky person who held his political beliefs lightly, and eventually we had productive discussions talking about the strengths of right wing thinking and how guns are great and so on. But one of the first things I noticed myself changing about was money.

By default I previously felt guilty for wanting or having money. But I was now questioning that. It felt so strange to have the emotions left over from an old identity (guilt) but was acting without the restraint of that old system, and gradually allowing myself to feel ...

... other things, like happiness about having new clothes. http://theoryengine.org/politics/money-part-2/ … So I had begun to grow comfortable with some thoughts in this new way of being.

One of the interesting things about being meta to systems is that you can SEE so much more of the world. Things no longer have to conform to your own sense of what is right and therefore allowed. Not only that but so many different things become available as tools.

I could use rationalist probability, right wing economic theory, left wing empathy, bisexual non-dualism, all to help me achieve my goals. Watching others fall over themselves to refute one and champion another also became very funny, if frustrating.

But there was a new problem. What were my goals? How to choose what I cared about? What was the point of anything? There was an absence of meaning in my life. Luckily I didn’t have to wait long before I re-found @Meaningness , a blog about meaning and meaninglessness.

The blog clears up some confusions about how to find meaning and it's apparently perfect for people like me who are in this meta-state but floundering over what to care about, or even how. In particular that blog’s description of “stances” helped me a lot.