Sometimes I like to think maybe there is hope, maybe if I make my own business I could succeed, and then it turns out my dreams are kept being a paywall with bright neon signs saying "poor people need not apply"
For as much as I clown on twitter, one thing I cherish about it is the auto translate feature
I no longer feel intimidated talking to ppl who don't speak english cuz that's not a problem anymore (for the most part)
I just wanna tell non-eng artists I like their work
Went to lowes today and saw no less than 3 fuckin cringe republicans wearing shit like "making liberals cry" and "ur only alive cuz it's illegal to kill u" with a fuckin law enforcement bumper right next to it like
Brain worms
They all have brain worms
And she tried to be like "what does it usually come with" and I'm just like... Both. You literally can have it With and Without coffee, it's YOUR choice why is this so complicated god
Coffee in it?"
"No one's ever asked me that before idk"
"...d- do you want coffee or not? It's not a trick question"
Eventually she got no coffee but this went on back and forth for Way Too Long
Thinking about wack interactions I've had w customers while working at starfux
"I want a choco chip frappe"
"Ok do u want coffee in that? We have two choco chip frappes, only difference is one has coffee other doesn't"
"Idk no one's ever asked me that before"
"Okay but do u want-
Whenever I'm at work and have to deal with customer names there are some weird brain associations I get
Like anyone named jason my brain goes " jayson derulooooo" in a rly high pitch voice
And anyone named michael gets the rat bday song "such a good boy this year"
Whenever there's a thing that supposedly popular that I don't enjoy, I genuinely feel like people are faking enjoying it
Like, that thing clearly sucks why are u lying?
And obvs this has more to do with my autism than other pol's enjoyment of things, but still
I still can't believe that after I've told her a solid chunk of my trauma, and explained that I'm fucking depressed all the time, she had the audacity to be like "how do u know u have depression and anxiety" LIKE?? I LIVE WITH ME?? FUCK OFF????
Fuck therapists actually
How do I tell my e-therapist I don't wanna see her anymore
The last session I had was... Uncomfortable at best, a bit degrading
Trying to get an autism/adhd diagnosis, and it felt like she was fighting against me on it
Y'know, if the people defending your lukewarm take are being vehemently racist, your take is probably also racist
I did unfollow the person who rt'd it, and blocked those in the thread
Pastels is one thing but this is blatant whitewashing
U ever just learn the real nature of something and can no longer look at it with blissful ignorance
Thinking about how resin crafts will never decompose and so all of those shitty ashtrays and other resin shit will be on this earth forever in a landfill
I hate it here
Like, character designs are supposed to tell u what they do at a glance, that's the whole point of the Silhouette
That bitches design tells me Nothing except he wears armor but doesn't know what the point of armor is
Exposed legs, exposed neck, and just generally no cohesion
Every time I see that rat ass looking protag from x*noblade 2 I fuckin vom in my mouth
How did someone create this character and no one at any point was like "yeah this bitch fuckin ugly, YEET"
like I could go on about character design intent, and how he effectively is worthless
the mental trauma of living through this pandemic in a society that doesnt take it remotely seriously and is willing to let thousands die while simultaneously mocking you for making sacrifices to keep those same people alive has broken something fundamentally in my soul i think
Thinking about how my splatoon sona's origin fanfic is he joins a gun ring on accident, has some dubious encounters, commits a murder, and then I couldn't fuckin do it anymore and that's it, that was all I wrote
What a fuckin terrible time, poor boy