Sam Howels

Crunch is destructive. It is not necessary (w/ good planning), and should not be forced on people. It is also seductive to certain types. 2/

For w/e reason, I'm broken in certain ways. Destroying myself to make something fills an emptiness that I can't shake. That's bad. 3/

The excerpt is from a moment in my life when I was at my lowest & giving in to my most self-destructive tendencies. 4/

I wanted you to see that through my eyes; to hear the things I tell myself when I consider throwing my life away for a work binge. 5/

Living and working that way led to a breakdown. I'm healthier now, but you know what? I still crave it. It is a CONSTANT fight for me. 6/

As an industry, we need to talk about crunch - how we define it, and especially how exploitative it can be. 7/

I didn't go into that, b/c I didn't want it to seem like I was forced to work this way. I did this to myself. Still do, tbh. 8/

And, if I'm being just really open about it, I wasn't sure I could do that discussion justice b/c I have a hard time seeing it clearly. 9/