decided to publish entries from my journal spanning years 2014-2017: years of depression and self-loathing; learning to accept myself and others; overcoming video game addiction https://guzey.com/personal/my-journal/ …https://twitter.com/alexeyguzey/status/1215692791214419971 …
I had a very similar experience lifting myself out from a depressive hole. To begin with it's so hard to find strength, but you slowly get better and eventually there is a mindset shift. There is a big positive: going through this once, strengthens your self-belief and willpower.