SJ Longthorne

People with BPD, how would you describe a BPD episode? I always find it difficult to do so (made worse by the fact I forget most of what happened after) and I know everyone experiences it differently.

I get the same — I can never truly empathise with my past self afterwards. For me I guess it’s like my head is inside this fish tank full of intense emotion; I’m drowning in it, I can’t see the rest of the world through it. Takes a LOT of emotional energy to resurface.

It’s really hard not to get dragged back in afterwards, too. But after it’s been a while, I’m always like “What? Nah, I’m fine! I don’t have a mental illness.” The next one always takes me by surprise with how severe and all encompassing and abnormal it feels.