SJ Longthorne

It’s completely normal not to want to do the things that will help you. As far as I’m aware, that’s part of the package. That doesn’t mean you shouldn’t do them. In those moments, trust that you should help yourself even if the idea repulses you. Just do it. Do it anyway.

I need your guidance lmfao I'm very stubborn about myself

Stubborn about not helping yourself?

yeh, bad habit

I don’t think that’s just you. I’d be surprised by anyone who said they found it easy to help themselves, particularly at their lowest. If it were easy, it wouldn’t be such a problem, but there’s literally something inside us that recoils from recovery.

ngl id rather help others than myself, which i did mention a while ago. maybe if i knew the good i did, it would help me find the ability to help myself, if that makes sense?

You’ll be able to help others more if you’re well. If you burn yourself out to a point where you’re incapable of helping others, well... you’re incapable of helping others. You don’t have to sacrifice self care to care for others; actually, it’s necessary.

So if helping others is what drives you, I’d implore you to actively help yourself, because not doing so will be counterproductive to your aims.