SJ Longthorne

if i dont kill masel it'll keep ebing like this. i dont want this any more

I don’t think you’re any of those things. And if we lived near each other, and you wanted me there, I would be there.

But nobody is here. Sometjing wrong wi me. Ive been doing really well lately but ive had a shitty week and when it gets bad i realise how ive novody close to me. Nobody to confide ib. Nobidy i trust. And i feel so fucking alone. And i cant deal woth it. I dont wanna be here

You didn’t feel that way a few days ago. If you’d be comfortable with it, I can try and make it over there.

i do have friends. people do care. am the problem. i just can never feel like people care. i cant internalise any of it. and i dunno how to reach out to people. and i just end up like this. am such fucking messm, sm so sorryr

am sorry am like this. i know am wrong. i just dunno how to deal with ebrything

There’s no need to apologise. Right now is shit. Is there anything you’re able to do that you know helps, if you let yourself? Offer to come see you still stands btw, and will continue to do so. It’s entirely up to you, how you feel, what you’re comfortable with.

I cant drag you out in the middle of the night. Am just having a rough time lately and theres so much going on and i just still feel like this mental case nobody wants to be around. I dont want be me. I dont like how little control i have my mind. Am really sorry