SJ Longthorne

no. people just feel bad. but youll all be a lot happier when am gome

That’s not true. I’m always delighted when we run into each other. I think you’re vastly intelligent, witty, kind. I think you’re very brave. And I’d like you to stick around.

am fucking nothing. amount of times ive been in hospital and nobodys been there with me. cause thats the kind of person i am. disgusting. pathetic. nobody cares until am this bad and even then. most folk say nothing. cause am worthless. and fucked up.

if i dont kill masel it'll keep ebing like this. i dont want this any more

I don’t think you’re any of those things. And if we lived near each other, and you wanted me there, I would be there.

But nobody is here. Sometjing wrong wi me. Ive been doing really well lately but ive had a shitty week and when it gets bad i realise how ive novody close to me. Nobody to confide ib. Nobidy i trust. And i feel so fucking alone. And i cant deal woth it. I dont wanna be here

You didn’t feel that way a few days ago. If you’d be comfortable with it, I can try and make it over there.

i do have friends. people do care. am the problem. i just can never feel like people care. i cant internalise any of it. and i dunno how to reach out to people. and i just end up like this. am such fucking messm, sm so sorryr