I found some old writing of mine from back when I was detrans where I was explaining how my conplicated relationship with my mother was one thing that "made me trans" and now it strikes me as something a reparative therapist would've loved to hear me say.
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We live in a culture where it makes sense to a lot of people to see being trans as a mental disorder/development gone wrong. In such a culture, it's easy for people to see conversion therapy/practices as sensible treatments for trans people instead of psychological torture.
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And it's easy for trans people to get a lot of positive reinforcement and praise if we come to believe something really is wrong with us and we're just traumatized, had a bad relationship with our parents, got caught up in a cultural trend, brainwashed by patriarchy, etc.
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A lot of the stories I told as a detrans person don't make sense when I look plainly at my life instead of trying to make it fit inside specific theories. There was a lot I had to ignore or distort to make the theories work. Some of what I used to believe seems so bizarre now.
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I got so much encouragement from other people when I told them these stories that I ended up believing in them for years. Transphobic people can't handle our reality so they encourage us to believe in their false views of us. They reward us for making our lives fit their ideas.
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They want us to lie about ourselves and believe the lies. And they convince themselves this is for "our own good". They're fighting to get their view of our "wrongness" into our heads and coming out of our mouths. It's fucking vile.
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