Ky Schevers

For me being trans means moving between different gender categories, both in terms of how I feel psychologically and how others perceive me socially. I sometimes I still feel like a woman but I feel like other genders too. Sometimes I feel genderless.

I feel different from women who only see themselves as women. I feel different from women who move through the world being seen and treated like women because I’m usually seen and treated like a man or sometimes like a trans person.

If I want other people to know that I’m a butch dyke/woman, then I need to come out to them about that part of myself. People usually aren’t going to figure that out on their own. It takes work for me to be a woman. I have to make a conscious effort to be seen as one.

I started getting read as different genders when I was fifteen, after I started presenting butch. My body was ambiguous and masculine-looking years before I transitioned. I often passed as male without trying. I feel like my body was trans long before I ever took t.

Since my teens years onward, I've never known what it’s like to move through the world and take it for granted that other people will see me as a woman. I’ve moved through the world as a genderweirdo for most of my life at this point.

I didn’t stop being seen or treated like a man or a trans person when I detransitioned. I didn’t stop functioning socially as a trans person just because I called myself a woman. It’s more like I started occupying another gender category, woman, in addition to man and trans.