OpheliaNoir

I hate making these posts, not seeking attention just understanding. Please listen <3 My eyesight issues often make me retract deep into my head, sometimes because I mentally overanalyze things, sometimes because it's physically too strenuous to be present. This sucks.

Why? Because you're always in your own head, you struggle to connect with others. There's days when I'm a social butterfly and not afraid to say a damn thing... but more often these are replaced by days where I'm too scared to even greet someone for fear of judgment.

I'm finding it difficult to be excited about things I love, feelings are there but they just don't surface. I really hope moving in to the new flat and finally returning to consistent streaming will break me out of this anti-social bubble, because I'm struggling lately.