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11/ But generally: my career, my property, my money, my partner, my race, my disability, my health, etc - almost entirely fixated symbol. Still, one can and must play on the boundaries of symbol and reality.

12/ No matter how good you get at relating to sensory 'reality', noticing the transparency of symbol, it will always be embedded within symbolic worlds. We are always, and everywhere between worlds. Even when we are asleep. Even when we die, the symbol will normally continue.

13/ You can’t just go chasing some pure, 'authentic' ultimate really real reality. You can try, but can’t really extricate one from the other. You have to play with both sides...in theory.

14/ Emotion is a good example for people to access these ideas. It sounds a lot, a lot like form/emptiness. I have a reasonable contact with the somatic experience of emotion, but I really struggle to slap a symbol onto that. I can conceptually identify some big ones though.

15/ Eg: Most people think anger is really real...and it is, kind of. What is anger actually? Anger is a fixated symbol of a sensory reality. That sensory experience itself is not ‘anger’.

16/ In fact, some emotional experience goes unnoticed precisely because you don't have a symbol for it. I suspect it's the same for neurotypicals: psychologists call it alexithymia IIRC.

17/ This area of symbol and reality kind of makes sense when we consider it from a meditative point of view - but it gets a bit weirder when you see the same patterns at work in different contexts.

18/ As this is supposed to somehow relate to mediation, I'll close with an experiment for you: when you look at a flower, what is symbol and what is reality? Look at the visual experience, look at the emotional sensations, look look look!