Mi'sen

For some reason, 2/3 of @leashless's meditation technique in the Cutting Machinery app works perfectly for me, but the third seldom works.

Alternating between focus and open awareness works perfectly well - I mean, as an exercise - but often there's no emotion to process!

Which leaves me feeling moderately awkward that I just can't conjure up anything to feel upset about, at least in the moment.

The only thing that seems to work consistently is to spend a lot of time invoking some particularly horrible thing about the world, but...

... even then, the whole thing becomes rather contrived, turns into more of an exercise in imagination than processing emotion as such.

Sounds a bit like several practices in the Tibetan models - which can easily be very contrived and mental masturbation, they can also be very powerful and/or liberating, when the conditions are right.

I have had massive payoff from meditating on difficult emotions -as they arise-, but I seldom manage to invoce them mid-sitting.

Just making the space every damn day matters. I'm starting to think I need to fine tune the description of that practice though.