I apologize for being alive. This is a famous statement by Osamu Dazai the well-known Japanese pessimist novelist, who then committed suicide. The exact same statement I've always been uttering in secret myself. I truly apologize for being alive. I know I don't deserve to live.
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It's not that you don't deserve to live, but, rather, you never had any choice. You were coerced into this hellish existence. It's not your fault.