(4) And, for another thing, I don't think I find pleasure in anything. Life is nothing but an incessant series of battles for improving yourself. There's just not a single second for mere pleasure. It's a luxury I can't ever afford or deserve to have.
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(5) If I allow myself to enjoy anything, I let myself enjoy improving myself or fighting for something higher, to overcome the pettiness and stupidity of pigs and apes passing for humans. In any case, I don't have to wait many more years to die, when quietude finally arrives.
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What's the point in "improving" yourself when it is all going to turn to shit, anyway? It's kinda like that Sisyphus myth of rolling the stone up the hill only to have it roll back down again
#sisyphus #selfimprovement #futility
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Yes, I know I'm a Sisyphus. But I like being that way than stopping this struggle. I believe in the "als ob" (as if) philosophy. I don't believe in God or any absolute truth or justice or goodness or anything, but I go on living *as if* I believed in God or something of the sort.
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So, you follow Camus's dictate that one must imagine Sisyphus happy. I can't do that. That totally turned me off to Camus when I read that. But, apparently it works for some people. It's like "faith". "Imagine" is equal to "just believe". Which I can't do.
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I see that I am not alone in my condemnation of Camus. Hahaha
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What's good about it? False hope? Self deceit? I don't get it. There's enough of that bullshit available already. It's what keeps the wheel of birth and death turning.
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It's by pretending that life has meaning that people justify forcing more people into the slaughterhouse of existence
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I can't. Can you?
I myself have never urged people to procreate, thereby forcing people into the slaughterhouse. Quite the contrary. There are certainly people out there who happen to be antinatalist Sisyphians.