New Zealand sounds like a hell hole. Like you have literally been living in hell. I know that movie you had me watch, I kept observing the people in it & they were all degenerate scum. Then the 13 yr old girl was raped & she hung herself. Fuck New Zealand.
No. You're too smart to fit in with that subhuman bunch. It's a shame you can't move somewhere where the atmosphere is more refined & cultured. But I don't even know where that would be, anymore.