You never knew when the violence was gonna happen. Id walk into the house & get knocked down by my brother. Or mom would hit me with an object. Violence outta nowhere. Dad would come home & chase me into the street sometimes, tackle me & beat me in the street
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I dont know what the fuck I did to make them attack me. I've asked them before, what did I do? They all say I would talk back. I'd ask them again, "So if a child talks back, you beat them mercilessly?" They just shrug their shoulders, like, whatever.
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Yeah. I was mouthy. I mean, I would call them on their stupidity & I think they just wanted to beat me into submission. It didnt work. But it did fuck up my self esteem. I still think I'm a worthless piece of shit sometimes. Something to be beaten. Im no good
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No. I never was really violent. I got away & met hippies & did drugs & got into buddhism & expanded my mind, as they say. I was drunk one time & hit one of my friends when I caught him with my girlfriend in her apt. I think that's the most violent I ever got
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1st time I smoked pot I was around 15 & a sense of relaxation & relief came over me. I was like "Wow! Let me breathe for a minute." It was temporary relief from the stress & angst, the fear & worry.
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Pot didnt help me thru difficult times. It's always difficult times, every day. Just being on this planet w/ 7.5 billion assholes breeding & torturing each other is difficult times. You keep talkin about pot, weed & acid. But you dont do the shit? wtf?
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Yeah. Me, too. I only smoke pot to keep from having a mental breakdown... like... every damned day.
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Because I haven't died, yet, I guess. I don't know. I'm not sure I understand your question.