as an example of the attitude of not caring anymore wrt to art, I learn new songs on the guitar by transposing them into a key where I can actually play them, because I'm doing it for me
when I was 18 I was struggling to prove something when I was learning difficult stuff on the piano. Now I understand there is mostly no point to this unless I'm really competing with someone ambitious for something worth gaining. Vanity is not a prize worth anything.
