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eigenrobot
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my friend is dead far too early at the worst possible time really. couldnt have been worse if it were planned even more than usual with death there is nothing i can do to make things remotely better. just have to wait for disaster to compound year over year, utterly powerless
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i met him when i was four and he was five. we lived in the same apartment complex. he was on a balcony and i was riding a bike. he shouted "hello" and in the manner of preschoolers asked if I wanted to be friends. i was elated. i had never had a friend before.
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eigenrobot
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he moved across town but we kept in touch. even when he moved across the country in high school we managed some yearly visits. he introduced me to magic cards, DND in elementary school. later on, FLCL, at just the right moment
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when i moved to virginia after college he was just a couple states over, and i had a car. predictably, within 24 hours of meeting up, a single cop managed to pull us both over while we were going 93 in a 55
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the last time i saw him was at his wedding maybe six years ago. i think i read a poem; he had a lot of brothers as groomsmen. it felt rushed. i was broke, in school, exhausted, in a failing relationship, distracted. we kept in touch afterward but less frequently. he'd had kids.
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eigenrobot
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I'm so sad for his parents and especially for his kids who might end up in a bad situation and there's nothing we can do and it fucking sucks. It just fucking sucks. His poor kids. He deserves better than this and so do they.
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I want to be clear this is not a request for help, just futile rage. Unfortunately every aspect of this falls into the set of problems that cannot be solved with, eg, money. If it could, I'd be on top of it. But if this was your first thought reading, I am still grateful.
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