i think being very depressed in grad school caused me to lose trust that if i just do what comes "naturally" or "go with the flow" then things will turn out okay. when you're very depressed you learn that what that does is keep you entrenched in your depression forever
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Without boundaries, energy cannot flow and ends up dispersed. This is what happens in depression and addiction. The whole thing about “surrendering to the flow” necessitates well-established boundaries through which the energy of life can flow seamlessly, without obstruction.