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Very much appreciate the premise here but speaking from experience, even when the shallows have been seen through and depth has come to reside, the firmament crumbles in midlife by design.

Like an unavoidable right of passage, life rejects the meaning we’ve assigned it, a horror to those who think they know the meaning, which is only outdone to those who know there isn’t any. The existential magnifying glass sears us into obliteration. Good times.

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🙏 I was quite unsure of posting this as I have not yet reached that part in my life; just felt it intuitively to have some level of truth. As one can see even glimpses of the true nature of *it* when younger, and thus be perhaps better prepared when what you described happens.

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I disagree with the sentiment of leaving spiritual exploration on the latter part of life. My idea was that the more one postpones the realization of the utter meaninglessness of life, the greater the crash around those years when life forces it to happen.

No need to doubt yourself, my dear. You are quite right that the crumbling of illusion is better sought than succumbed to… the earlier the better. Just find it odd that no matter what adherence remains in us, life finds a way to slip it from our grasp—the ultimate rug pull 😭😂

And then there is the overwhelming panic of time running out, a persistent thought that although I “know” better, still remains— undoubtedly tied to the deep fear of losing my youth. Ah, isn’t this fun?

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