You can only grasp the inexplicable miracle of being alive when you let yourself confront death, or rather the absence of being alive.
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When you reach the bottom of your anxiety about death, and are faced with its absolute inevitability, your anxiety melts into the most marvelous, peaceful sense of joy.
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You are accompanied with the deep conviction that death is precisely that which allows you to exist right now as you; that the transience of life is exactly what makes it worth living, and that trying to live in denial of this is like living in a cave.
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And as long as you try to run from this, you will live your life having your back turned to the sun, seeing only your own shadows—and being scared of them.