i seriously have wanted to talk about how i feel about seungcheol for a long time now but i can never seem to be able to pin point my ideas or find the right words. however i don’t care now because my hearts knows what i want to say even if the world won’t ever get the full thing
ever since he was given this role, he has had these negative thoughts about not being good enough for the role. you’ve seen it in SVT Project, probably the first time any of us have actually seen the responsibilities weighing down his shoulders. remember the campfire?
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(if i see any more comments like i did back in the earlier times about how woozi produces and hoshi choreographs and seungcheol does nothing i’m gonna fucking lose it)
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cheol talked about the stress and responsibilities that jihoon has to go through as the group’s producer and one of his first thoughts is that he should’ve done more. he thinks to himself, what kind of leader am i to let my friend and teammate suffer through this.
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while this may seem selfish (“he’s only thinking about himself”) it’s actually the opposite. he doesn’t want others to feel burdened. if he could take everyone’s pain, he would do it in a heartbeat. his thoughts are always about others first, he puts his members before him ALWAYS
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yet, he still doesn’t think he’s good enough? his mentality is always about doing the best for his members, understanding them, solving their problems, being by their side to fight against everything and anything that tries to harm them and he thinks he’s lacking?
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pain, stress, and heartache will always exist. no matter how good of a person you are, you can never fully take it away from someone. you can’t shield them completely, cheol, no matter how hard you try. no, it’s not because you should “be a better leader” but bc its inescapable
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your members understand this, carats understand this, please let your heart understand this as well. even if things get past this protective shield you’ve kept up for so long, we’re still in your embrace, under your care, and that’s all we can ask for. you’ve worked hard.
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watching his interview, i’ve realized that no matter how many times he’s told that he’s good enough, he may never fully believe it. his heart, bless that pure soul, will always keep him back from being fully satisfied. he’ll always push himself because he believes we deserve that
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the reason why he’s in this role is because people believed he could do it. he says he only accepted it because they believed in him. not because he believed in himself, but because of his members. do you guys realize what that means? you know why he’s such an amazing leader?
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because even before taking that first step, it was always about them. his members are the reason, THEY WILL ALWAYS BE HIS REASON. i don’t think i’ll ever fully understand just how big of heart he has in order for him to hold that much love in it.
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he said that he was always a follower, perhaps because he’s the youngest in his own family. he’s faced with being a leader for the first time. he didn’t think he could do it but he did it anyway, because they believed in him. they always will.
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however, now knowing this about him, it makes me think about him differently. he’s a leader, so in my head, i always imagined him leading svt, always taking the first step, always ahead of them to guide them where they need to go. together, of course, but he’d always be first.
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the first to face things, the first to risk things, the first line of defense. but maybe, he isn’t actually in front.
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i think he stays behind them. he watches their backs to protect them from unseen attacks, he’s in the back so prevent them from turning around, he’s behind them so he can push them forward. because it’s not about him. it’s about them. it’ll always be about them.
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i feel like i have so much to say, so much i’m missing, but i feel like if i type anymore i’ll cry too hard i won’t be able to finish. so i’ll leave this here, and hopefully my heart will feel lighter now. i don’t think anyone will read this, but i hope carats support him well
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i would also like to thank the other members. thank you for holding his hand, pulling him forward, and letting him know that he doesn’t have to do this alone.
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