hmm i have a good professional job but my sense of self worth is entirely divorced from my job performance i think this is a liability intrinsic motivation > pride / status motivation > monetary motivation and I dont even care about cash much.i like eating but thats about it
yeaaahhhh that's a good point but occasionally it would be nice to have some internal drive to do a boring project so I could get some dopamine hits "I wrote a boring paper and that means I'm Good" rather than "yeah im just fine independent of this stupid project"