Evan Urquhart

I hesitate to really say that but I think they're closely related and hard to untangle and just... I can point to the things that got easier, they do exist. But the costs also do.

Right! There are legit struggles thst come with being a guy, and with being trans. We don't get to talk about them much, except amongst ourselves, but being a trans masc person *does* have its own unique struggles, and we need room to talk about BOTH parts of that identity.

Or where they intersect. For various reasons I was off T for quite a while....and I still have all my factory original parts. It's been.......[and again today is]......a weird space to be in.

I'm not on T (yet? Probably) which means this body is in fact the one issued to me. That's sometimes fascinating.

Not... Good fascinating, usually. Like, there are people out there who, if I said I was a woman, would defend my right to look and act like I do, but if I say I'm a man, they're up in arms against me I'm just me in the middle of that, confused AF why the label scares them.

Ugh, I'm sorry it's not good fascinating experience for you. Honestly I think we [the umbrella trans community] scare them because we buck convention by our existence. If trans people exist, then maybe the world isn't what they thought, and that can be scary.

I mean what if they actually thought about their deepest assumptions about humanity? That might mean changing things! And they like things as they are! I kinda get it.

It's scary for all of us like... no one likes change. I did not really enjoy my entire preconception of myself just... moving over Change is often painful, but often good for us. I am glad for the change, I just wish it wasn't so hard to untangle everything around it, yknow?