Evan Urquhart

It's amazing what dysphoria & a history of abuse will do to yr perception of self - some of the most gorgeous women I've ever met in my life, firmly and absolutely convinced that they're not just ugly, but so outlandishly ugly that it stops people from wanting to date them

Spending ten to thirty years in yr awkward "ugly duckling" phase before getting on HRT and turning into a swan in the span of a year or two REALLY messes with people, in what are pretty understandable ways, and our old self-images often stay frozen and don't update w/our bodies

for me, the weirdest thing has been looking back and realizing that most attractive trans women were also attractive before transition, but just had that attractiveness buried under layers of fear, discomfort, & hatred for our bodies & our internal dissonance w/masc presentation