Evan Urquhart

I don't know exactly how to talk about it, but I feel like I wasn't prepared for how much transition would change my personality and my relationships.

Transition was described thus: I'd always been a man and my appearance would change but "I" wouldn't. The reality... is a lot more complicated.

One competing description of transition is that it's like a second puberty. That comparison has been a lot more resonant. The adult me was radically different than myself as a child. This is also true of me pre and post transition.

Of course, I wasn't a child pre-transition- I was definitely an adult. So it's not a perfect metaphor. But, while I can remember things about childhood, I can't fully put myself back in the mind of a child, and my memories of myself pre-transition have a similar character.