Okay so life update thread here in case anyone was wondering. My dad cheated on my mom and moved out in November. I lost my job at Hot Topic in February. I'm now working for FYE. Its pretty terrible. I don't get enough hours or make enough money. But good news in the comments.
Im also working on keeping a journal to get things out when im feeling them. I'm working on writing and drawing more as well. And I'm seeing a new psychiatrist who has me on new medication and that's definitely been helping. I'm working on getting my job back at Hot Topic too.