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The amount of people quote retweeting this...my heart goes out to you. There aren’t words. PLEASE know you aren’t alone. My experience.. A THREAD:https://twitter.com/JordanHanz/status/1267673342758260737 …

When I was 22 I was sexually assaulted. This person was a good friend. I trusted him. EVERYONE did. All of my other friends knew & loved him. I never in a million years would have thought he was a predator in hiding. EVER. However, that all changed.

One drunken night I drank too much, and this person I thought was my friend took advantage of me in a disgusting way. Convinced me it was my fault. “I was drinking, I wanted it.” For almost a year...I blamed myself. I HATED myself. I wanted to die.

I was in shock and disbelief. Did that actually happen? No, it couldn’t have right? Sexual assault is more violent...sexual assault...is saying no. Right? How could I tell my friends? Who would believe me? He was a stand up guy. So I didn’t. I held the blame in my heart...

I tried to tell a good friend, and this first thing they said was “well you were drinking right?” Finally after opening up, I went to therapy and learned how prominent survivors guilt is. I was told how it can be interpreted as a way to try to have some kind of control..