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Noticing a trend of FOMO regarding 'life experiences' for emerging adults I've got it. Big time. I think it stems from a combination of A) childhood coddling B) lack of skill development C) conflict between 'adult' environment and 'adolescent' mind D) my shitty memory

((not to mention my debilitating fear of the passage of time)) The belief that you're too old or too young in comparison to the achievements you should have made or experiences you should have had is a product of shame - and shame is bestowed upon us all unwillingly

Same is the product of a disconnect between an external ideal of how the world should work, and how it is coming to be in your individual experience Once you notice this, it's much easier to let these strange expectations that have no regard for your personal history go

In saying that... I know this and I still feel regret. Which means something in there is speaking a rational truth that I must address. Is it possible for me to continue to learn and improve myself as a person , whilst leaving enough room for me to have an actual life?

Some background on why I feel so strongly about this: I never had room to be a kid. My childhood was spent dealing with my parents divorce and going to academically rigorous schools. All I did was homework from K-12. No sports, and friendships were only within school hours

I also moved around a lot. I went to 7 different schools in different states/countries. This meant whatever friendships I made never had the time to really strengthen. Now I'm out of home and at uni. I'm in a selective uni course that basically means I'm doing...

Double the regular amount of coursework. Plus living out of home means I have to work 3 jobs to stay in the course and feed myself. The weekends give me some reprieve. But my closest friends (my housemates) are 5 years older than me.