Unsurprisingly the university was disappointed with my progress and my mental health was suffering, so at the end of my last internship I decided to drop out, again. No job offers from my host companies though (my mental health was partly to blame).
14/25
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Thankfully I managed to find a job working at a startup for a bit over two years. I learned a bunch of stuff over that time, but trying to satisfy both my career and my side interests took a toll, as did trying to mitigate the 'move fast and break things' approach at work.
15/25
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The startup grew, and I got to see it in many different stages, seeing the associated pains, and also the troubling effects of investment funding, and a troubling disdain from leadership for anything that 'seemed too academic'.
16/25
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After a long break in Europe I decided to look for another job. Thankfully, my connections led me to quickly finding a new job, in Rust! They were incredibly supportive of trying to apply academic research to the real world!
17/25
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So now I find myself getting paid to learn exactly the stuff I wanted to learn in university - alas without much support from experts. I do my best though. It's tough, challenging, but deeply satisfying and fulfilling. I'm very thankful to be in this fortunate position.
18/25
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I'm now finally starting to get a handle on my mental health, but it's a work in progress. It seems most of my problems stem being distractable and insatiably curious about everything (probably ADHD), which leads me to avoid important things, leading to anxiety and stress.
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I don't know what this decade will hold. More and more climate change is on my mind, and it seems like the window to explore some of the fascinating things I'm interested in is closing. It's terrifying, but I know I can't let it overwhelm me.
20/25
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My professional goals this decade are to take what I've learned in applied programming languages and combine it with my artistic and world building interests. So more voyager3.tumblr.com! But who knows, I might get distracted by something else… we'll see! 😅
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I also want to try to leverage some of the things I've learn from design, industry, and the theory, and see what's possible when these things are combined in interesting ways. For more on this check out: gist.github.com/brendanzab/eba
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I'm incredibly thankful for all those who supported me along the way. I often get lost in my own world and forget to do show my appreciation and give back, but I'm going to try my best to do a better job of this, and to be a better friend.
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I'm also thankful to the Australian government. Sadly I think the support that I received at the time would not be available to people these days. It was vital for helping me turn into the constructive citizen that I am today. We desperately need universal basic income.
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Wrapping up, last decade was a huge journey for me. I feel incredibly fortunate to be here, and be able to do the things I do. I'll try my best to be aware of the privilege I have, and give back to those with less of it. Here's to the 2020s. I hope we can make it count. 🤞
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