It's a very pure dramatic irony Like if you don't know the show, and you just hear this song out of context, it's a pretty song about childhood nostalgia and that's it ...If you *do* know the show and know that Evan is lying through his teeth it hits like a ton of bricks
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Every single joyful, wistful line in the song paints Evan's despair in negative space Everything is the exact opposite of what he was really feeling, everything is what he wished for and could see so clearly he could touch it but was never really there
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"There's nothing that we can't discuss" (there was no one he could talk to at all) "There's nowhere else I'd rather be" (he would've rather been anyone else) "All we see is sky for forever, all we see is light for forever" (the dark and cold closed in until he couldn't breathe)
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"Bike the Appalachian trail Or write a book or learn to sail Wouldn't that be cool?" (he tried and tried to think of something he could do in the future that would make him happy and had nothing) "Feels like we could go on forever this way" (he couldn't go on one more second)
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It cuts so fucking deep That he reimagines every single detail of the event What if I climbed to the top of the tree out of childlike glee, because I was so excited I had to see how high I could go, because I loved the world so much I wanted to see as much of it as I could
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What if I fell because I was so excited and happy I forgot myself in a moment of pure carefree adrenaline, my sense of myself dissolving in the sunlight and the wind and the smell of spring
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Instead of shrinking deeper and deeper into myself, brutally wounding myself with the cold bitter numbness that cuts like a knife, until, with my eyes closed tight and my teeth drawing blood from my cheek, I made myself let go
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What if, when I opened my eyes with the pain shooting through my arm, realizing I was alive, that I was going to go home now and life was going to go on as it was before What if that made me feel *relief*
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Neil Gaiman made Despair and Desire twin siblings in Sandman Like if you really don't understand what the word "dysphoria" means just remember it's the exact opposite of "euphoria"
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Just imagine all the memories you go back to that make life bearable, the scrapbook of photos that get you through hard times And understand everyone has one of those, but some people have to live with the knowledge that all the photos are fakes
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