Anna Brandberg

I was thinking on this yesterday, talking to L and J about some different things that have happened in my life. And being like OH that is actually quite terrible isn't it. Eeeeep. Lucky brain moves onto the next thing I guess!

Yuuuup. Sometimes I'm like "Oh boy, I'm so relieved nothing bad has happened to me directly." And then when I see people list their examples I'm like "Oh wait, that has happened to me too. Oh and that thing too. Oh and that one too. Ahhh... shit."

I could do without the occasional 'Hey - remember that thing? That thing you forgot? No? Ok - let me remind you!'

Don't get me wrong, I still get a few of these too lol... Just not as many as some other people, thankfully!

I thought I was defective because of this very thing. I was made to feel ashamed because that's how I processed childhood trauma.

Totally. It's that grey line between "Is this PTSD suppressing my trauma or is it just ADHD?" Ps. You are in no way defective. Your brain is perfect.

Maybe this "neurological condition" is actually a highly evolved trait

The downside is I forget many of the good things too. And it's hard for me to hold ppl accountable, bc details just don't stick in my brain. I question and second-guess myself constantly. If anyone says I'm wrong, I often just assume they're right, bc I don't trust my own memory.

It's very blurry, can't remember many faces or names though so that sucks. Good things is the bad times being a blur too, bad thing is still remembering I had a bad time, but it's feels like it's from another lifetime.

Hard relate.