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you could say that "all life is just the performance of God" and end smother the line of questioning with woo but there *is* something to feeling "real" and feeling "fake" yes? there *is* a difference to a dream and reality even though it's only obvious in retrospect yes?

similar to lucid dreamers, there's a way to habitually "check yourself" like with dreamers, as a habit it a becomes an idiosyncrasy and part of your character. e.g. you can't literally be trying to fly all the time and not come across as somewhat "airheaded"

this is "humility". a constant background process of "do i really understand everything that's going on?" "is this really who i am?" it creates a "listening" to life rather than an acting of life

the point isn't to always be listening. u need to eat and poop and kill and so on. but it leverage how obvious it is when you lose track of a conversation "sorry i wasn't listening, can you repeat that?"

w/o humility, it's too easy to be lost in the story you tell yourself (a distinctively hooman ability) with humility you can declare arrogantly "i am a level 99 elf god wizard of the barren lands" and smite your opponents but also not literally declare that on a date

the opposite of humility is typically "arrogance" but that doesn't ring true for most for most, it is "specialness"

many "specials" tend towards spiritual paths where they proclaim their alignment with all that is natural being "natural" (an expression of the one divine, normie) AND being "special" (an emphasis on the unique importance of a specific self) conflict of interests