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sitting stuck in a room with a bunch of keys trying to smelt them into one super key can be a rational response to a scary task that of taking the risk of seeing which keys are forged from your own bullshit, or explode in your face

at risk of stretching this analogy far too much, you could also say that in each room, the task is finding THE key once the key is found, every other key disappears and you have to start again with a whole bunch of new keys and new doors

there is no way to "keep" keys going forward the same way you cannot know if you can maintain passion for something as you progress in proficiency at it maybe you lose interest. maybe it gets too hard. it's impossible to tell prior to the attainment.

there is a desire to reconciliate prayer and meditation prayer being The Thing to Do for traditional religion, and meditation being The Thing for new "spiritual not religious" religions

this strikes me the same as asking "what piano do i buy to be a good pianist" "what camera do i buy to be a good photographer" "what etf/altcoin do i buy to become rich" "what framework do i learn to get good at coding"

hooking up a piano to act as a keyboard to type into a code editor to manually control a camera to take pictures of astrological movements to buy stocks on does NOT give you the best of all worlds

that being said they are not completely equal. learning to code may be more motivating for someone b/c there's future career prospects. maybe u hate tech so piano might be better. maybe ur deaf so try photography