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only a memory can be beautiful. thus only scars can be beautiful. (kintsugi) the reason a sunset or art can feel beautiful in the moment is bc they radiate so strongly that they burn and scar in real time

sufficient exposure to beauty actually obliterates the identity that is observing it by turning the ENTIRE identity itself into a memory that which observes this “old self” of a scar is that which is “reborn”

“voyeurism” is perverted because it observes beauty through a slit and thus never self-annihilates. it’s a controlled masturbation to beauty that preserves a precious (cowardly) self

the coward however is much like a fearful kitten or a puppy. it is not fully sexually mature. a maturity differential between mind and model creates a discordant “pervert” sensation

this is y those who take advantage of daddy-issue girls or watch hentai feel “wrong”. the beauty being sought is built on a need for a maturity differential that has never fully resolved

so unlike the kitten/puppy where the cowardice/fear is felt as “cute” and is helped along to grow, a maturity differential in an adult is socially shunned or repressed

thus the obliteration of this self is only possible when someone else sees the inner child that has been forsaken for so long. this is a very rate kind of compassion that you usually have to pay therapists for