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finding God requires killing God. you need to kill YOUR god, your PERSONAL god. the one most closest and dearest to you. (killing other's God's is easy in comparison and is often a displacement cope hobby)

e.g. many depressed hoomans, atheist or otherwise worships the idea of of a interventional god. "oh lord above, i have repented and suffered so much already, won't u send down some Literal Magic to make my life happy? if not, can u at least smite those heathens w/ suffering?"

the desire for Something to Happen misses how something is always happening. e.g. "var this = " makes no sense. you need "var this = null" or "var this = undefined" u can't just "have" and "contain" nothing b/c Actual Nothingness cannot arise in consciousness

when the hooman is part of a story the hooman is happy. that is, hoomans desire meaning because they desire happiness. if they have happiness then they are no longer Needy for Meaning

they no longer NEED for something else to happen which allows them to actually SEE what IS happening which allows them to take steps towards ACCEPTING what is happening. e.g. the end of their puny one single life

"God" is what takes all the nothingness and molds it into a Meaningful Something. it can be brittle and dissolve into meaningless just as adding or removing a semicolon can break source-code.