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let’s say i’m trying to learn piano but am frustrated, and procrastinating demotivated. one way to get last this blocker is to just one a smaller chunk. e.g. press one key. this is a kind of debt b/c i now have progress and expectations of heroic playing in the future

this future heroic vision of self is what allows self in the present to chunk difficult things into bite sized pieces

debt is necessary for progress in anything that you cannot swallow in one bite like an evil snek.

but its weakness is that you can crash. if your heroic vision of self becomes too out of hand, the entire vision pops and collapses and enter a depressive spiral. you psychological credit score is too low and ur brain won’t allow you to project heroic visions anymore

this shifts your goal from achievement to redemption this is a NASTY place to be psychologically is you don’t believe in the possibility of redemption (e.g. absent or dead God)

hooman society as it is is not capstoned by communion with the divine and so its redemption quests are open ended and infinite. a hooman society can never offer u enough money or love or w/e it is u think u need. eternal treadmill until death by heart attack

the only alternative is death by ooga booga. (hint: i climbed a tree and have seen that ooga booga is just death by peloton until heart attack)