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“nowness” isn’t about passive acceptance but active steering. most of the time we *know* how to balance situations but are stuck replaying an injustice in the mind, and oversteering to compensate.

e.g. ignoring your children b/c you were overly controlled growing up. in your mind it “averages out”. you KNOW the “right” thing is balance in the middle but b/c you can’t let the past go you *have* to be on the extreme opposite of your trauma.

these are rationalizations over a much more mundane Real reason. which is that balance is hard. it takes far less energy to he toppled over on the bike to the Left or to the Right. you just lay there.

balance requires actually keeping your eyes open and hundreds of micro adjustments every minute. it’s “hard” but also “easy”