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While there *is* something to prove it's more of a proof by contradiction. E.g. try to find yourself and realize that you can't, ergo "self" doesn't exist. There are two traps here.

The first is not realizing that the goal is proof by contradiction, which leads to narcissism, a desire to "prove" self's existence by increasing its resolution with more attention, love, etc.. The more mirrors, the more "me", the more "I" exist.

The other is not having a "give up" point. E.g. instead of accepting "Ok, the refrigerator light is closed most of the time since the door is closed most of the time." you have to tear down the whole damn refrigerator.

The more "Faith" you have the more you *don't* need to dissect the world to lessen your anxiety at being "not sure". Too much faith and too little faith both lead to problems. With a lot of faith, it's much easier to be happier but also much easier to be "ignore"-ant.

With too little faith, you walk into much fewer walls b/c you're not ignoring them but are also always paranoid and anxious all the time. You *feel* the dark ocean surrounding you at all time. The doors you open lead to more doors, creating a constant feeling of drowning.

To balance the right degree of faith one exercise is to focus on breath. Fear of drowning is a great fear yet your body deals with this for you most of the time and even lets you take the reigns whenever you want.

Similar anchor points include a happy SO, a happy family as well as happy community(which requires consistently going to some sort of building regularly). When these shatter, faith is also often broken.