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To be extremely curious is to seek death, to find the piece of information that shatters your world view and forms you anew.https://twitter.com/a_yawning_cat/status/1326993364827324416 …

This isn't always pleasant. e.g. "Wait, am *I* the asshole??" "Am *I* the one that's insane?"

Freedom is a *very* interesting thing to be curious about. Searching for it is akin to contorting your beingness into various shapes and forms trying to attract it into your life.https://twitter.com/a_yawning_cat/status/1331215166961188864?s=20 …

In many spiritual contexts, freedom is associated with lack of an "I". The previous painful examples of asshole/insanity realization don't "hurt" as much when there is no "I" that is linguistically stressed.

Because "Maybe I'm the asshole" feelings are manifested more easily, this leads to increased freedom. E.g. if I want to become a good pianist, first I must go through the phase of being a bad pianist and to get to that I must first manifest the "absolute idiot at piano" state.

Dropping the "I" feeling is like a cheat code. It's like having infinite courage because the self can be broken and reformed without having to hold onto itself.

E.g. if I imagine the concept of self as Batman, then I can send Batman into various dangerous situations. Like public speaking. If *I* am speaking in public then *I* can be embarrassed and ashamed. If it's just this "character" though, then that fear has no effect.

The use of rationality can be a useful tool to differentiate between "actual" danger that affects reality and "egoic" danger that only affects perceived self identity.