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The reason why 'wanting' and 'seeing' feel disconnected is because most wanting and seeing is corrupted or false. What is 'seen' is an overly warped vision and what is 'wanted' isn't really what is wanted. Wanting energy feels entitled and greedy while Seeing energy feels cynical

You could call it the infinite game vs finite game (zero-sum) visions of reality. From the perspective of the finite game, wanting and seeing are completely different while they are the same from the infinite's. (note not to confuse infinite w/ very bigly)

The infinite perspective is okay with not knowing (b/c not possible) while the finite but very bigly perspective wants to project across lifetimes. But even a googolplex is as far away from infinity as 0.

If you're thinking "This is just a convoluted way to say that 'reality happens' using weird metaphors of soul, vacuum, and manifestation" then yes, that's correct.

But these more woo-ey base terms can be like switching from cartesian to polar coordinates or vice versa. Some things are made so much easier that it changes everything.

The manifestation vacuum concept for example is a useful rationality <-> post-rationality bridge. Manifestation: If reality has enough information so that something happens somewhere, then that thing happens. Reality *is* just a bunch of info calculation done by atoms bumping

Since awareness is part of reality, it allows the same cause -> effect model to be re-used in woo contexts. All it needs is to accept awareness as a fundamental property of reality instead of isolating itself as a separate neutral entity performing a double blind experiment.

What is implies for personal manifestation is also interesting because it allows you to reason about if what you're trying to manifest is overly magical. You can gauge the pressure gradient that your manifestation vacuum is creating and estimate based on size/speed/complexity.

If that estimate can't be done it also means that you're trying to manifest something that's too complicated. You're a wizard Harry, not suddenly Dumbledore.

If the energy can't be brought to bear to fill in the knowledge gaps in order to "cast" the spell... then did you really want it? Magic doesn't mean "easy". Magic is just advanced technology and technology is *HARD*.

What most desires for magic are is a desire for some authority figure to package the complexity into a simple button. A magic wand is desired with the same energy a gun is. There's a rejection of responsibility.

Note that this rejection isn't necessarily bad. Many people have rejected the responsibility of being able to live as hunter/gatherers or farmers for example. Rejection of responsibility => specialization as part of society. Yay. togetherness.

Most magic (application of will unto reality) should be like gardening. You're working with primal forces with highly compressed complex systems that operate on a completely different timescale than yours. It's a servant role, not a master role.

Trying to create a high manifestation differential does increase the speed of movement towards the desired state, but it often doesn't get there. It's like sprinting the first half a marathon. You don't finish but it looked cool (number 1!) for some time.

Pulling on grass doesn't make it grow faster. The act of trying to do so indicates lack of foundational knowledge.

So... is it possible to both "apply Will unto reality" and "let things happen" They seem to be opposites. The answer is: Acceptance...subjugating will to reality. To live humbly as a 'servant' unto 'reality'.

Acceptance is paradoxically both a high energy act (since you need to 'parse' the firehose of reality ) and a low energy act (you don't have to consciously control anything). You just have to stop hijacking the energy for other stuff like constant re-manifesting "self".

acceptance/non-acceptance doesn't change reality, it ratchets forward deterministically. You can suffer in acceptance as well as non-acceptance. But in the accepted state you'll know more of WHY you're sad.

You could say that you've been playing a mobile game all this time while begrudgingly playing monopoly in real life b/c it's boring and you obviously can't win. Except you don't realize that a few years ago the game changed into something else.

Acceptance/manifestation means to water the seeds. It's about learning about the universe, the elements, earth, air, water, fire...

It is not about working with primal forces in order to eventually control them and measure their productive output. It's about working with them with awareness that awareness IS a primal force.