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An "I" driven contentment engine spends most of its time trying to reach contentment, when the "I" can say "I did THIS" While this can make the eventual contentment feel more intense, it's intensity is only relative. actual intensity is the same as the gratitude kind.

A "they" driven contentment engine on the other hand only requires awareness. It doesn't requires physical exertion on the body and doesn't require the mind to put together an identity. It just requires a simple awareness.

This awareness muscle is often deactivated much like muscles in the back are deactivated when sitting for too long over years. These muscles seem weak, especially in relation to the overcompensating larger ones, but they're usually the ones that can do the job eternally w/o pain.

The deactivation of the awareness muscle happens with trauma. E.g. the kind of scene that a child runs and hides from; or cries to overload the input senses, obscuring the traumatic scene.

Awareness can only be dampened or turned in another direction. It can be turned off since then it would no longer be awareness. The coping mechanisms from these traumas create blind spots in an awareness field just like muscle deactivation.

A common awareness blindspot is boredom. Awareness is kept at a constantly low amplitude. Much like visiting manhattan, dampening yourself down to prevent being overwhelmed, and being unable to release when back in the countryside. Everything feels 'boring' relative to the city.

But boredom awareness is the most foundational one. It is the sacred capstone within a home. Without awareness of boredom there is no way for awareness to rest. It's like a constant injection of caffeine.

A traumatic response to boredom can be due to a hostile home environment. By being vulnerable enough to say "This is my new home." it's possible to give awareness a new touchstone to rejuvenate itself.