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I see your bad can only be applied to the"other" and raise you self hate and its extreme extension, suicide

Question: is our understanding of badness in ourselves something that we learn on our own? One can certainly make mistakes that we recognize as non-good, but to truly feel Bad I think stems from a lesson taught externally, and later integrated.

W/o external labels the natural state is probably the optimistic 'no failures, just lessons learned' state. original root of bad label is prolly inability to make sense of death "It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose/die. That is not a weakness. That is life."

In particular an awareness of death, coupled with a failure to understand it. "This is... wrong? What even is wrong" -> one two skip a few -> Some Greek dude named Playdoh telling people about caves or something

where then it is not death itself per se that is the source of all Bad but rather the varying ways in which we act unnaturally due to the discomfort with our inability to sense-make about it unhealthily coping with mortality = bad

Agree very much, it's the wild thrashing and inability to make sense of tragedy not the actual tragedy itself. There is no way to make sense of something that is senseless except through acceptance.

Makes me wonder if some kinds of rationality have been source of much tragedy b/c of the strong desire and belief to make sense of *everything*. A nazi concentration camp for e.g. was a pinnacle of scientific methodology...

A world made entirely of 1s and 0s is easier to process than one that allows for partial answers The chief thing I hear about nonbinary gender is "I just don't understand it"