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Narcissism doesn't feel like narcissism when you're narcissistic. It feels like trying to be everyone's friend and helping them be a better person.

Ignorance doesn't feel like ignorance when you're ignorant. It feels like protecting the world against danger they can't handle.

Bullying doesn't feel like bullying when you're the bully. It feels like holding high standards and the competitive thrill of winning.

Arrogance doesn't feel like arrogance when you're arrogant. It feels like confidence or bravado.

?WAIT JUST A SEC IS THIS Y THERE IS NO EVIL? Everyone can feel good on the inside but it can be “bad” from the perspective of others. So while ‘good’ is a confirmed feeling for consciousness, “bad” is not bc “bad” is always applied to “other”.

I see your bad can only be applied to the"other" and raise you self hate and its extreme extension, suicide

Question: is our understanding of badness in ourselves something that we learn on our own? One can certainly make mistakes that we recognize as non-good, but to truly feel Bad I think stems from a lesson taught externally, and later integrated.

W/o external labels the natural state is probably the optimistic 'no failures, just lessons learned' state. original root of bad label is prolly inability to make sense of death "It is possible to commit no mistakes and still lose/die. That is not a weakness. That is life."