i have this weird neurosis about working for a big tech co i need to figure that shit out quick hm
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I also think about what if I'm just really good at it. I think I could be. I could work forever nonstop if it was really addicting. And I think a fast paced work environment could be exactly that. Then I imagine myself at 50 wondering how I'd spent my youngest youth.
Hmm... seems like a fear of having your dream or “Path” taken away. Rejection at the gates or disillusionment from within both would both do this.
